Day 166
Today is my 35th birthday! I have had a nice weekend, Jasper and I went out for lunch on Friday, then we had a few friends around for a BBQ last night which was lovely and the kids brought me a big box of chocolates for breakfast this morning! (Jasper also cooked me some eggs!) It has always been one of the tougher days since Matt died to get through as he always used to make such a big fuss of me and its these times that I feel his loss the most, so it was great to have Jasper around looking after me.
The kids had a great time playing playstation and bashing each other for most of last night. I have had a nice quiet day today, (few too many bourbons last night I think) and will aim for an early night, after all I’m on the downward slide to 40 now!
I do feel so sad that I can hit 35 but Matt only made it to 34 and it looks like little Kyah may not even make it to her 3rd birthday. It just isn’t fair, I wish with so much of my heart that I could take Shanell and Jasons pain away and make Kyah well again.
We have a tentative date for Liam’s next surgery being the 15th October. I am a little nervous in case Charles finds some recurrence of the tumour while he is dropping the plate, but will cross that bridge if or when we come to it.
The kids and I have decided to go jump into the spa so will write more later!
Becs
October 5, 2008 @
A very happy 35th to you Becs and hope you had a wonderful day!! Gosh how time flies! I remember the days of old, camping with the animals and of course the family was there too! Man that all feels like a lifetime ago……. just remember there is no downward slide – it is all uphill from here!!! They say life begins at 40 don’t they?? Glad you had a nice time – you deserve it. Matt would still be sending you love and hugs like only he could! Take care and all the best for the 15th, we are away for a couple of weeks in Aus but will catch up on our return. Nic xx
October 6, 2008 @
Happy Birthday you old bird! Remember – like cheese and fine wine, good things get better with age … that’s what I tell myself anyway! Glad you had a nice weekend.
October 6, 2008 @
Ha! Welcome to middle-age….apparently.
You know Becs, I’ve always remember having this conversation with Matt when I was having a little meltdown at turning 30. He told me that every birthday he reaches is a victory and a blessing and I should be grateful that I am reaching these milestones….way to put me in my place Matt! So now everytime I have a whinge and a moan about my age (cos I still do), I remember Matt and his wise words and I feel your grief, I really do. I miss him too.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Gorgeous Girl…..Love you lots xxx
October 7, 2008 @
Happy Birthday Becs
Glad you enjoyed your birthday
Lots of love
Tony & Jody
October 11, 2008 @
Had a great time on Sat – just the one glass of good NZ wine planned but…. After a hello from the awesome family/friends group that is yours … there was a party. You guys are out of this world and I am lucky to have had a fleeting glance and privledged look into an awesome group of people who take knocks which the majority of people would collapse at. I adore Liam and Ashleigh’s smiles – gosh you are good Becs! Dont forget it and keep the corkscrew to hand for the grim visit of the whinging Pom! Hugs and love D and crew
October 11, 2008 @
Hey Becs, sounds like you had a fab birthday. We will get that catchup phone call in soon!! Thinking of you all constantly. Talk soon. Lots of squeezes, Nina